Just before Christmas I broke my computer.
I watched it fall out of my hands as if in slow motion. I had an RA flare in my right wrist that day and didn't think as I lifted up my computer to go find a sunnier place to work. Two seconds in and the excruciating pain hit. Pain that makes you see red. That gives you the sweats. It felt like a searing knife was tearing apart my tendons. And so I dropped it.
I lost everything. With the exception of photos, I've been slow to save to the Cloud. Everything having anything to do with starting a new business lived on my desktop—which was so full that I could barely see the nature scene behind all the documents. Oh I was going to organize it. I just hadn't gotten around to it yet. I would when I could find the time. But now it's all gone.
Oh no. OH NOOOO. Okay. Okay. Okay. Everything's going to be okay. At least that's what I told myself in the moment. And after a few deep breaths, I actually started to believe it.
BREAKING MY COMPUTER BROKE THE SPELL I WAS UNDER.
Breaking my computer was expensive. But so were all of those documents, videos and how-to's that in aggregate we're holding me back. I had noticed that I was getting lost in the weeds trying to get everything perfect instead of just starting. An analysis paralyses of sorts. If I just watch one more webinar on how to _______ (insert whatever project I was working on), then I'll be able to create it myself. I was hyper-focused on 'ready' and 'set' to the detriment of 'go!'
A FORCED CLEANSE.
I bought a new computer, one that came with an empty desktop. A desktop that's ready to be filled with my creations—not others'.
I didn't ask for this cleanse. But it gave me the gift of a fresh start. It gave me peace of mind. It gave me momentum. There's no longer any baggage (dare I say toxins?) holding me back. It's all been eliminated.
This new computer? Not just a computer. I see it as a renewal of sorts. A renewal of my passion for the potential of Root of Wellbeing and the inspiration and guidance I provide as folks transform from their "old selves" to their "new selves."
Am I clumsy? Depends on who you ask. Is Spring just around the corner? Yes. So today's topic on minimizing toxins from our homes shouldn't be too much of a surprise. Thankfully, there's much in our control. I hope you choose to clean up shop—whether it be your desktop, your home or both.
MY FOCUS NOW? CLEANSING MY HOME.
Those sunsets we like? We can thank the toxic soup of 80,000 different chemicals going into the environment. And what about food? There are 3000 licensed chemicals going into our food supply. We don't know what the aggregate impact those toxins will have, but it's safe to say that it's not good. And those numbers? Not typos. So what's a person to do? Focus on what you bring into your home and you'll start to breathe easier.